The long, cold days of winter pass by and then finally after what seems like forever spring starts to show herself. When she shows up something happens inside me that can only be described as an awakening. I feel the stir to get outside, the urge to make things make sense, the desire to create, to thrive and the need to organize. I feel a literal buzz after spending time in the sunshine. I feel alive. I feel joyful. I feel a sense of purpose and a drive to uncover things hidden deep inside. Perhaps a metaphorical dusting off of my soul.
Spring represents a fresh start and I am inspired by that prospect of dusting off my soul and decluttering my mind and my heart. And let me tell you that there is so much more dust there than ever before. Grief, resentment & anger have done a number on me and changed me for both the good and the bad. I desperately want to thrive in the positive, to allow in the light, to raise my energy, raise my frequency with the Universe and learn the tools to move through all the ugly shit that comes my way. This is instead of allowing it to consume me... as I have been.
Each day I head outside and peek on my perennials, hoping that they made it through the winter and are going to come back. Come back stronger and more full. My energy is palpable when I see the first plants come up through the dry, hard dirt. The perseverance amazes me every time! I come inside and tell anyone that will listen that there are new plants to see and then we all go back outside to inspect the new growth.
Taking inspiration from spring and it's rebirth has become a daily practice for me. Noticing all the greens, the blooms, the smell of the fresh air, respecting the survivors after a spring snow, feeling the warmth of the sun and listening to the song from the birds. I could listen to the birds all day, they always sound so freakin' happy! I even smiled at 5am the other morning when they woke me up. It was too pretty to make me grumpy & I went on to have a wonderful day. Making a metal note of my energy and how the rest of my day unfolds has been big for me. Was I shitty and ended up having a shitty day? Did something crap happen that I couldn't let go of and therefore I gave permission to the crap to ruin the rest of my day. Paying attention has opened my eyes.
Pay attention to all of it. It all matters and it all has a story to tell. The birds, the blooms, the crap, the sunshine, the giant ticket you got in the mail.... it all has a story to tell you if you care to listen.
This is my latest card class for Treasured Memories using Kaiser Craft's Story Book collection. I love the colors, the pops of gold and the vintage feel of these papers. The cards are perfect for female and male recipients.
Class is Tuesday, April 26 at 6pm but there will also be class kits available to purchase. These kits come complete with all the product, photos and instructions. For all the class details you can pop on over to here.
It has been a long two months since I last posted. For the most part I was sick. I had a cold that wouldn't go away mid February and then on February 29 Anna came home from school with the flu. By 7pm that same day I knew I had it too. Not how I planned to spend our extra day! I also wasn't expecting to have that flu and a million other illnesses for over a month. Poor Anna missed so much school, Cory had to miss work to care for us and I pretty much didn't work for the whole month of March. Thankfully I can say now that I am symptom free and only have a few metal reminders of how crappy it all was. Poor Anna still has viral hives (whatever that means) but fortunately feels like champ. Somehow Cory escaped all of it, not even a sniffle.
What have we been up to?
- Laying on the couch for days gave me a lot of time to think but that thinking was anything but positive and led me to a very dark place. I realized I was so full of anger, anger that for the most part was being bottled up. I have began dealing with that (and so much more) by journaling, talking it out loud, getting active, doing morning yoga and intention setting. It's helping and allowing me to see things, people and my situations more clearly. Work in progress.
- Anna was awarded a highflyer award for kindness from her principal. I was a very proud momma.
- Cory entered a Jui Jitsu tournament and received gold in both his fights. Very proud wife.
- Anna has an energy and light about her that oozes magic. I am so grateful to be her Momma.
- We took a impromptu trip to Canmore and breathed in the mountain air.
- We celebrated Easter back home. These kids are the best!
- Cory celebrated his birthday!
- I went on a much needed retreat with some friends. I scrapbooked, ate way too much food, got to sleep though the night and watch these amazing sunsets.
- my hard drive died (basically blew up) and I lost everything from the past 3 years. Both Disney trips, every holiday, photos of my dad, playschool & kindergarten and all the magic moments in between. I cried for days. I found lots of memories saved on Instagram, Facebook and here on the blog and just like that I was grateful for technology again.
- I am making a very conscious decision to "take care of me", do what's right for me, put me first. It's hard and I feel guilty. However when I do put me first and bid the guilt farewell I feel so much better. So much more alive and happy and everyone around me benefits from that. Paying attention to the energy that I bring to the table has been high on my intention setting list.
- New hair. I had not had my hair professionally colored since my wedding in 2008. That seems a little far reaching but seriously, I can't recall having it done other than that.
- We have been spending as much time as we can outside enjoying the sunshine.
- Anna asked to try riding her bike without the training wheels. It was frustrating, exciting, sad, scary.... and that was just me (ha ha ha). She did great but I have a feeling she will be taking this whole bike riding thing slowly.
Over sized photos = Awesome! This is an 8x12, printed at Costco for $2.50! These photos make a statement on a layout and while you can be limited in what else you can put on your page they draw your eye in and create a focus point for adding your bits & bobs.
This is Anna's Kindergarten photo and it makes my heart melt every time I look at it. I know that she will go through the awkward phase in school photos- it's inevitable. She will certainly not want me to blow that awkward photo up- that is also inevitable but how great would it be to have an album full of school photos / layouts for the next 12 years! I'll tell you.... it would be so great!