Hello friends, I feel like it's been months since I wrote last. Sorry, I can't really be held responsible for much of anything these days. I am starting to understand the term "baby brain", I can't focus, I have the attention span of a 2 year old, I'm super forgetful, I am getting clumsier as the days go by and I have no motivation. The worst part, I'm being super hard on myself about it all. I'm having a hard time just letting it be, it does not help that I am ridiculously stubborn either. *insert big sigh here* I have had a very busy couple of weeks though, on top of the usual day to day wonderings I am trying to finish up an e-course I am in. I finished up 2 gift paintings, made a "first year" scapbook for Arabelle. I worked at Treasured Memories for their inventory. I attended a baby shower for Chantel & Scarlett, then the next day headed to a baby shower for Carrie & Arabelle. I can't lie I was completely "babied- out". I'm sure some of you are thinking that's funny since I will have one here in approximately 123 days! That's right! 123! I'll share with you my feelings here in hopes that someone can relate to me and tell me that it's totally normal.... I had a little freak out after the showers. Like a major overwhelm with tears upon tears! There were babies everywhere (3 at the second shower). I felt like the walls were closing in on me. I kept thinking I can't do this, which of course only made me feel terrible since I love my little bambino more than anything. A few dozen deep breaths, a long talk from my amazing husband and many many bumps from my baby leaves me feeling better. Not completely calm but better. This is normal right? *insert stunned deer in the headlights look here* Anyways, enough about that.
Chantel & Scarlett. Chantel is gorgeous right? Please let me look this fantastic after my baby. Look at Scarlett's new Vans- awesome!
My sweet Arabelle, so wonderful. FYI- niece, aunt, etc are not defined by blood but a huge over joyous amount of love.
Our truck broke down almost 2 weeks ago, ugh! Stay calm, that's what I kept saying to Cory, it may have been more for me in the end. We decided to fix it ourselves as a garage would cost a small fortune for what it needed and a small fortune is not what we have. So this is what my Saturday looked like. Cory & I changed the fuel filter and the fuel pump assembly. 8 hours, two trips to Part Source and one Tim's run and only one argument later it was time for the moment of truth... I turned the key and she started like a brand new vehicle. Can't lie, I cried a little I was so damn happy. Now you may be thinking, how much work did I do really? In the end my role was vital, Cory's hands & arms were too big for a couple things and that's where I saved the day! Yeah Nadine!
I never thought I'd love this belly as much as I do.
I have a to-do list 10 miles long (only a slight exaggeration) so I am off. Take Care & thanks for listening.
xoxo
My sweet Arabelle, so wonderful. FYI- niece, aunt, etc are not defined by blood but a huge over joyous amount of love.
3 comments:
The belly suits you - you should keep it after the baby :)
You will be a wonderful Mommy, and from what I've heard you might (might) have the feeling of walls closing in on you once (or twice) more but your love for that bambino will always pull through. You are going to be such a fantastic Mom. I mean look at the adorable things you are already buying for 30 years down the line ;)
you are so super cute!
that deer in the headlights feeling never truly goes away. it hides in the background until baby makes a funny noise, or screams until she is blue in the face.
Or when your four-year old has used up all the bandaids in the house because he is a clumsy fool!
or when nothing seems to be working right and you're feeling darn right crap-tacular.
but the snuggles, and kisses, and unrequited love make the days much brighter.
we can't all be "perfect" moms, but we can give all the love we have to give. and somehow...that's enough.
You?? Stubborn?? No!Haha!
Once you get to meet your babe for the very first time, you'll forget about all those other feelings.. there will only be LOVE!!
-xoxox-
p.s. I heart your belly
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